Polite Reminder

2008-08-27T08:23:08+02:00

As much as I hate to start a blog blabbering on about things to do with romance, it's the only thing going on right now, so I will have to do it.

In a period of time I can only estimate as from about 10 months to a year or more, I've only found one girl who I really like. And I will state that in that period of time, I have in fact dated someone, she just wasn't someone I really liked. By really like I mean, someone who actually understands what I ramble on about, knows why I am the way I am, all that jazz.

But unfortunately, at my time of meeting her, having been on rotation policy for my romantic endeavors (I hadn't dated someone in about 6 months) I had become a little rusty. My confidence wasn't what it was, and to be honest, hers wasn't great either. Obviously despite the fact that I thought the world of her. So, we went on two or three dates. In that time, especially towards the later ones, I had found about twenty to thirty moments when the old me would have me his move. But me being the low confidence pathetically over thinking reck of a person that I am; I took none of those chances.

Life has a way of biting back when you sit on your ass and do nothing about something quite blatantly really great sitting in front of you and smiling. Well, it just so happens, it bit me soon after. So, a week after, a guy comes down to the merry old place of Manchester, whom she had met at camping and was 'visiting' so wanted to meet up with her. Well, I'm sure you can guess. They ended up making out at the cinema and she became 'confused' as in she didn't know what she felt.

This is around the point when I say 'Damn women!' But I won't, because to be honest: I deserved it. A day after, she attended her friends birthday party. All I got was a text the morning after, saying 'I'm so doing the walk of shame right now'. Whatever that means, I can only guess. But it's pretty clear to me that my love catching days are over.

Now, to me, I say that's done and dusted. Speaking to my friend, I said I wasn't in the right place at the time, I'm not currently happy with myself and my confidence is quite low. No one wants a boyfriend like that. But, she seems to think different. (She is, of course, female) She said that having not made my move, she had waited and waited and then assumed that my feelings toward her were only of friendship, and thus, things happened with the other guy.

It's a fair point, I think, but I've been through this situation before. If a girl has to choose between two guys, and even if she ends up picking you, it never turns out well. There's always that resentment there. Not to sound selfish, but I like to think that if a girl is going to pick me, she doesn't need time to decide. She should just already know. And if she needs time to decide, then I must obviously not be as great to her as she is to me. That is my lowly opinion of the matter.

Any thoughts to you guys?

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